Arandomelle

Well, haven't been on Deviantart for a while, and immediately got harrassed to 'upgrade' my profile. Which I did. And it looks the same. So that was a good use of time.

My long absence can be attributed to many things. The first being my fiance leaving me, and then a string of failed and mentally abusive relationships, leading to a very sharp lack of inspiration and drive to actually do anything creative! Then I finally found a wonderful guy, who supports me in everything, but all the cr*p had taken hold by that point and I was diagnosed with depression, had to leave my job, move back in with parents etc etc. Good news now is, it's a year on since that diagnosis, and I'm off my meds, out of counselling, in a new job (which I love) and doing much better. I'm now a firm believer in admitting you need help, and then asking for it (I should've done it years ago, then I probably never would have ended up in that state in the first place!).

So, why am I awake at 12.24am? Last night I had a horrible nightmare that even after I woke up and then went back to sleep, I was still stuck in. It makes me slightly wary about going to sleep again tonight .... But I have got a late shift tomorrow, and a trip to the gym in the morning, so it would probably be a good idea to try and sleep.

Gaaaaar! What to do?!?!?!?

Been pretty low again recently. Lots of hospital trips and been signed off work a lot. It's a given now really that I'll lose my job, but I'm trying not to worry about it too much, as stress seems to make me worse lol!

One greatthing though is that my boyfriend who I've been with since Novembe 1st is a photographer as well (annoyingly a better one than me), but together we've had some pretty good ideas for some shots. Hopefully the fruits of those labours will one day appear on here, kind of involves me and Greg both in front of and behind the camera. I'll put his images up on here also, seeing as I am apparently now a faction of his business: Hunter Photography (www.hunterphotography.co.uk)

Anyways, sleep is calling me, as is usual these days.

Much love

x x x Jenn x x x

So, it's been a while, a lot has happened, not a lot productive though.

No inspiration has arrived in any shape or form, as usual.

So meh ...

x x x

It's a good day ........

I'm 20 in 8days. Pretty scary. My teenage life is over, with nothing to show for it. It's worrying how fast life goes, isn't it?

I'm really planning on doing something good with the next decade of my life. Don't know what, but I'm sure I'll figure something out. Any ideas, let me know!!!

x x x

Today is a bad day ... a very bad day. I hate the 13th of April. It's crappy. And to make matters worse, I have a rubbish job and no inspiration to write or to take pictures. I've got a couple of good ideas but, wouldn't you know it, no one wants to model for them.



ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!